Wednesday, February 25, 2009

economic protection

With the economy continuing it's downward spiral, sales are going down, businesses are failing, people are losing their jobs. It sucks. But there most be one thing that's prospering despite the crappy value of the dollar. Anyone venture to guess what it is? I was thinking, and my idea is that of all things, condoms are probably experiencing great sales right now. I mean, think about it. Who would want to bring a child into this economy? I'm sure having a baby is something that's not a popular idea at this point in time, so people are taking extra precautions. It's kind of like the reverse Baby Boomer effect...times were good when all of the men came back from World War II and so bunches of babies started to spring up everywhere. Now, times are in the toilet so people are trying to prevent the (I hate to say this...) extra expense of supporting another child. Has anyone confirmed this with the recent birth rates?

I'm not saying this is exactly true, but it's just another thing I was throwing around my head. I do that on occasion in order to block thoughts of other things out.

What do you think???

Oh, and Happy Ash Wednesday. What are you giving up?

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

kellogg's v. brown

So, I rarely take to my blog twice a day (I think this is the first time), but I just HAVE to write about this. I've been keeping quiet about it for a few days now, but after reading this article on Perez Hilton, I just had to make the comparison.

Okay, a few weeks ago, this picture of Michael Phelps smoking a bong hit the internet. After everyone was exposed to that, Phelps lost pretty much all of his endorsements, which is extremely understandable. One of the companies Phelps did ads for was Kellogg's, and they dropped him like a hot potato (excuse the cliche)! Now a lot of people (and some I know personally) are boycotting Kellogg's because of this. In my opinion, that's a bunch of crap. Don't get me wrong, I have no problem with people smoking weed. If you want to do that, it's your call and it's fine with me. However, what I do have a problem with is people who are supposed to be international role models smoking weed in pictures. If you're going to engage in such behavior, do it at home, behind closed doors, where people can't snap camera phone pictures and sell them to the tabloids. Kellogg's has every right to drop their endorsement if they feel as though Phelps is not representing their company's image. How much do they pay this guy? I'm willing to bet that it's at least five figures. If they don't agree with Phelps taking a huge hit off a bong, they can nullify their contracts and that's that. The same thing goes on the smaller scale. If someone you had working in your house, say a maid, a gardener, a babysitter, whoever it may be, and they were caught smoking weed, wouldn't you fire them? These aren't the kind of people who you would want working for your family, and by association representing you in public. A lot of people are arguing that it's stupid that marijuana is illegal, and that's why they're boycotting Kellogg's. Okay, you're right. It is stupid that marijuana is illegal, but the fact is IT'S STILL ILLEGAL! What Michael Phelps did was an illegal activity. Kellogg's does not want someone who participates in illegal activities representing their company. They terminated his contract. End of story. Also, I wonder how many people realize that Kellogg's sells a lot more than cereal. So here's a list of Kellogg's brands for those of you partaking in the boycott: Keebler, Pop-Tarts, Eggo, Cheez-It, Club, Nutrigrain, Rice Krispies, All-Bran, Special K, Mini-Wheats, Chips Deluxe, Sandies, Morningstar Farms, Famous Amos, and Murray.
I'm sure you've noticed that the list is pretty comprehensive. Good luck going to the grocery store and actually being able to buy something. If you're still eating and purchasing any of these foods when you said you were boycotting Kellogg's brands, I'm going to have to call you out as a big hypocrite. Either put down the Pop-Tart or shut up.

Next topic: Chris Brown beating up Rihanna.

The article I posted about Chris Brown losing all of his radio plays, endorsements, fans, etc. sparked an interest in comparing the two. What Chris Brown did to Rihanna is way more serious than Michael Phelps enjoying some reefer. You can't just physically assault someone like that and get away with it. I've already blogged about that though, so if you're interested in my take on the situation you should go read it. So after my disclaimer on the seriousness of this situation, I'd like to say that both Phelps and Brown are celebrities. They both did something illegal. Both are being punished with dropped endorsements, lost fans, and boycotts. This may be an obvious question, but why are people not getting upset about Chris Brown's lost reputation? Part of my nature is to be controversial, so after you over the initial shock of my question, just think about it. A crime is a crime. Punishment usually follows crime. Both men are being punished. Logically, this follows. Phelps is getting a slap on the wrist compared to what Brown is getting. He's not even being arrested or charged with anything, while other people involved in drug usage that night are! We complain about celebrities getting paid so much for "doing nothing" anyway, so why is it upsetting to a good number of the population that Phelps is being dropped by companies left and right? He no longer represents what they stand for. Whereas, if radio stations kept playing Chris Brown's songs, people would go nuts. DJs and fans don't support a woman-beating bastard such as Brown is, and since this is looked down on in the public eye, people are okay with him losing his fame or whatever you may say is happening to him. All I'm trying to say is that Michael Phelps no longer represents the companies that used to endorse him because of his drug usage. Chris Brown is no longer someone most people want to support because of what he did to his girlfriend. So why is it right to drop Chris Brown but not Michael Phelps? Think about it. To me, that is not a logical argument because, as I stated above, both have misrepresented their sponsors in the public eye. Sure, one crime was way worse than the other, but again, BOTH COMMITTED CRIMES!

Before I publish this, I'd like to re-state that I in no way, shape, or form support Chris Brown laying his hands on Rihanna. What he did was terrible and I, along with many others, will not stand for such behavior.
That said, I leave you something to chew on...

missing you

After going so long without speaking, I feel as though it will be hard to readjust/weird. Maybe it'll be like the beginning of our relationship, who knows? All that I know is I miss you lots and lots and more and more each day that goes by and I don't hear your voice. I can't even remember what it sounds like, really. And when I look at pictures of you, it's like I'm looking at a stranger. It's all too much for me to comprehend sometimes.
Two weeks doesn't seem that long, but go without speaking and you'll see that it is. You miss so much in each others' lives and it's like you have to relearn everything about them. My memory keeps getting foggier concerning things like his personality, the things he said to me before we stopped talking, the way he looks when he's mad. I'm beginning to forget all the bad, so I hope I won't be disappointed. It's melting away, drying up, hopefully it'll stay that way.
There isn't a second that goes by that I don't think about you and how it'll be in just four days when we talk again. My greatest fear is that I'll tell you how much I've missed you and you'll tell me that you haven't missed me at all. I'm having nightmares about it.
I love you...don't let this love fade away.

Monday, February 23, 2009

busy week

I have so much due this week that it's not even funny! There are always a few weeks in the semester where things happen to creep up on you and you've completely forgotten about them--or set them off to the side and not thought about them since they were assigned. This week is not going to be fun...and then I have a 7-9 page paper due next Monday, along with another writing assignment, and a presentation next Tuesday. WOW! Can you say STRESS??? I usually try not to let things bother me. I just do them (or don't do them until the last minute!) and let it be done. Stress sucks. It makes your face break out, your stomach ache, and your nerves jitter. Anywho, if I don't post for a few days, you know what's up. I'm buried under a pile of books and papers and won't be coming out for the foreseeable future. Thankfully, Spring Break is right around the corner. Goodbye UNC, hello St. Petersburg, Florida!

Sunday, February 22, 2009

iTunes games

As a change of pace from my normal moody/pensive blogging, here are a few games played with iTunes. Enjoy!
PS: I restarted the shuffle every time I started a new survey, hence the repetition of some songs.


****#1****

Open up your iTunes and fill out this survey, no matter how embarrassing the responses might be.

How many songs total: 400
How many hours or days of music: 1.1 days

Sort by song title
First Song: Aeroplane (Red Hot Chili Peppers)
Last Song: The 4th Branch (Immortal Technique)

Sort by time
Shortest Song: Intro (Kanye West) at 19 seconds
Longest Song: Last Call (Kanye West) at 12:41

Sort by album
First album: All That We Needed (Plain White Ts)
Last album: 80s Collection (Frankie Smith)

Top Five Most Played Songs
1. Redemption Song (Bob Marley)
2. One Love (Bob Marley)
3. Sugar, We're Going Down (Fall Out Boy)
4. Over My Head (The Fray)
5. I Belong to Me (Jessica Simpson)

First song that comes up on Shuffle: Paris in Flames (Thursday)

Search the following and state how many songs come up
Death - 4
Life - 12
Love - 11
Hate - 2
You - 41
Sex - 3
________



****#2****

IF YOUR LIFE WERE A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?

So, here’s how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that’s playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don’t lie!

Opening Credits: Mad World (Gary Jules)

Waking Up: One Mic (Nas) [haha Lucy, this is meant to be for you!]

First Day At School: Everything We Had (The Academy Is...)

Falling In Love: Ave Maria (Pavarotti)

Fight Song: Hey There Delilah (Plain White T's) [really?!?! lol]

Prom: Hey Jealousy (Gin Blossoms)

Life’s OK: Promiscuous (Nelly Furtado) [hahahaha]

Mental Breakdown: Smoke Two Joints (Sublime) [well...I guess that one fits]

Driving: Sun Is Shining (Bob Marley) [okay, this one definitely works here!]

Flashback: Miss Murder (AFI)

Getting Back Together: Yellow (Coldplay) [awww...makes me want to cry]

Birth of Child: Your Body is a Wonderland (John Mayer) [would fit better BEFORE the child!]

Wedding: Broken (Seether feat. Amy Lee) [haha, nice]

Final Battle: Real World (Matchbox 20)

Death Scene: Neighbors (The Academy Is...)

Funeral Song: I Don't Love You (My Chemical Romance) [wow...]

End Credits: Every Morning (Sugar Ray) [ballin!!!]
________



****3****


1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write that song name down no matter how silly it sounds.

IF SOMEONE SAYS “IS THIS OKAY” YOU SAY?
Broken (Seether feat. Amy Lee) [this one keeps coming up...]

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
My Humps (Black Eyed Peas) [spot on! lol!]

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
I'd Do Anything (Simple Plan) [freaky.]

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Everything I Am (Kanye West)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?
Nobody's Home (Avril Lavigne)

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Deep Inside of You (Third Eye Blind) [interesting]

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Beautiful (Nick Lachey) [awww...]

WHAT DO YOU OFTEN THINK ABOUT?
Low (Flo-Rida) [haha...yep I loves me some Apple Bottom Jeans!]

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Slow Motion (Third Eye Blind)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Yellow (Coldplay)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
What's Your Fantasy (Ludacris) [apparently I want to be a stripper because when I did this survey on Facebook another sexy song came up!]

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
I Shot the Sheriff (Bob Marley) [haha, kinda]

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Intro (Kanye West) [wow....really inappropriate]

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
One Week (Barenaked Ladies) [hahahaha yep]

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Wrong Idea (Snoop Dogg) [not sure what to make of this one]

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
What I Got (Sublime) [you try to figure it out!]

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
On Your Own (Nick Lachey) [well...that's kind of depressing]

WHAT IS YOUR NICKNAME?
Graduation Day (Kanye West)
________



****4****

TO TAKE THIS SURVEY, SIMPLY PUT YOUR MUSIC PLAYER ON SHUFFLE -
- AND ANSWER THE QUESTIONS WITH THE TITLE OF THE SONG THAT COMES ON -
[it's better if you don't cheat and don't skip any songs.]

What is your name? Or what should your name be?
Doin' Time (Sublime)

How is your life going?
Jesus Walks (Kanye West)

What is your nickname?
Sex and Candy (Marcy Playground) [ohhh yesss]

What is your theme song?
Tha Shiznit (Snoop Dogg) [well, that pretty much describes me :P]

What is your best friend's theme song?
Sleeping In (The Postal Service) [nice song :)]

How is your life going to turn out?
Smoke Two Joints (Sublime) [Gosh, I really hope not!]

Will you get married?
Buffalo Soldier (Bob Marley)

Will you have kids?
Every Time (Britney Spears) [haha, that's reassuring!]

What will your job be?
Slow Down (The Academy Is...) [sweet, I don't have to worry about that for awhile]

Did you/will you finish school?
I Don't Give a Damn (Avril Lavigne) [lmao!]

Who is your best friend?
Deep Inside of You (Third Eye Blind)

Who is or will be your significant other?
Hanging by a Moment (Lifehouse) [aww...love this song]

Who do you like?
I'd Do Anything (Simple Plan)

How will you die?
I Will Buy You A New Life (Everclear) [judging by the band, by drinking too much lol]

How do you feel right now?
One Mic (Nas) [whaaaat?]

What is your favorite song?
The Cause of Death (Immortal Technique) [not my fav, but pretty good]

How could you describe your parents?
At Last (Etta James)

Your best friend[s]?
Swagger Like Us (TI) [haha yep, pretty much ballin]

Your teachers?
The Joker (Steve Miller Band) [haha, they're all a bunch of jokers fo sho]

Your significant other [or crush...]?
Screaming Infidelities (Dashboard Confessional) [omg...I really hope not!]

Yourself?
We Don't Care (Kanye West) [haha yep]

What is your best feature?
Flashing Lights (Kanye West)

What will you be / should you be, profession-wise?
You Don't Know How it Feels (Tom Petty) [lol]

How could you describe this survey?
Too Much to Ask (Avril Lavigne) [hahahaha]

What makes you angry?
Locked Up (Akon) [yep, that would pretty much do it]

What makes you sad?
War All the Time (Thursday) [totally true]

What makes you happy?
The Next Episode (Dr. Dre & Snoop Dogg) [haha! YES!]

What makes you dance?
Everywhere But Here (Nick Lachey) [not so much]

What is your favorite color?
Paperthin Hymn (Anberlin)

How would you describe yourself?
It Ends Tonight (All American Rejects) [yikes!]

Who is your worst enemy?
Angel (Sarah McLachlan) [ehhh...no?]

Who do you hate?
Chop Chop (The Academy Is...)

Who do you love?
Wide Open Spaces (Dixie Chicks) [well, we're having a lot of "space" between us now...]

Who do you lust after?
Ghosts (Nick Lachey) [omg...sooo true at times]

Finish the Sentence

I wish: Slow Jamz (Kanye West)

I want to: My Sacrifice (Creed)

I want to kill: Drive (Incubus)

I want to eat: 3 AM (Matchbox 20) [lol...]

My head: Thug Luv (Bone Thugs n Harmony) [yeaaah]

I am: From Yesterday (30 Seconds to Mars) [lol love it]

My best feature is: Jack & Diane (John Cougar Mellencamp)

My eyes are: Irreplaceable (Beyonce) [yep!]

My hair is: Roll it Up, Light it Up, Smoke it Up (Cypress Hill) [noooo!]

My face is: Invisible (Ashlee Simpson) [aww :(]

You should: Colt 45 (Afroman)

Random

Words of advice: Shhh (Atmosphere) [so true for most people!]

How do others see me?: Walk It Out Remix (DJ Unk) [haha]

How do I see myself?: This Song Brought to You by a Falling Bomb (Thursday) [kinda sad :(]
________


****5****
What Would be Said? Shuffle Survey

Put your iTunes on shuffle, but instead of just putting the name of the song, write the first sentence of the song as a response to the questions.
PS: I skipped the intros on most of these songs and just put the first "real" lines. :)

These were my first words:
Snoooooooop. When the pimps in the crib ma, drop it like it's hot.
"Drop it Like it's Hot" by Snoop Dogg


This is what my mom said when she gave birth to me:
You're there by my side, in every way.
"This I Swear" by Nick Lachey


This is what I say every morning when I wake up:
My eyes are open wide, by the way I made it through the day.
"Second Chance" by Shinedown [appropriate!]

This is what my friends think of me:
Come here girl. What your name is?
"Shake Ya Tailfeather" by Nelly, P.Diddy, and Murphy Lee

These are the first words I spoke to my true love:
When the night has come and the land is dark and the moon is the only light we see.
"Stand by Me" by John Lennon

If someone says this, it makes me mad:
Spread your love and fly.
"Fly" by Sugar Ray

This is my battle cry:
I know what you're doing, I see it all too clear.
"Barely Breathing" by Duncan Sheik

This is my outlook on life:
Tell me do you think it'd be alright if I could just crash here tonight.
"Hey Jealousy" by Gin Blossoms

This is my message to the world:
She said it's cold outside and she hands my my raincoat.
"3 AM" by Matchbox 20

This always cheers me up:
Are you there?
"You Are Not Alone" by Nick Lachey

This is what my last boyfriend/girlfriend said to break up with me:
Snoop D.O. Double G, the way you rip so love-ely
"Snoop D.O. Double G" by Snoop Dogg [lol!]

People think I'm crazy if I say this:
Close your eyes.
"I'll Make Love to You" by Boyz II Men

I said this when I lost my virginity:
Notice me, take my hand.
"Everytime" by Britney Spears

I'd say this to break up with someone:
I would dial the numbers just to listen to your breath.
"Come to my window" by Melissa Etheridge [would be better in the "People would think I'm crazy if... section!]

I said this when I found out I was pregnant/got someone pregnant:
My friends, I'm so depressed.
"My Friends" by Red Hot Chili Peppers [hahahaha, I would totally say that!]

I said this in my wedding vows:
And it came to me then that every plan is a tiny prayer to father time.
"What Sarah Said" by Death Cab for Cutie [wow, nice title!]

People said this when I got married:
I never said I'd lie in wait forever.
"The Ghost of You" by My Chemical Romance

This is what I said when I proposed/was proposed to:
I like pleasure spiked with pain and music is my aeroplane.
"Aeroplane" by Red Hot Chili Peppers

I said this when I was fired from/quit my job:
God show me the way cuz the devil's trying to break me down.
"Jesus Walks" by Kanye West [lol, stickin it to the man eh?]

My last words:
I've got a cupboard with cans of food, filtered water and pictures of you.
"We Will Become Silhouettes" by The Postal Service [haha, fitting]

What people say at my funeral:
They see me rollin', they hatin', tryin to catch my ridin' dirty.
"Ridin' Dirty" by Chamillionaire [lmao!!!!]

Saturday, February 21, 2009

list of grievances

Yeah okay, I'm angry. I'll admit it. There are seven stages of grief: denial, pain and guilt, anger, loneliness, the upward turn, reconstruction, and acceptance. I'm currently in the third stage, although it feels like my moods fluctuate on a daily basis. I've definitely been in the denial, pain, and loneliness stages already. Today I just want to air my list of grievances on this relationship:

1. You always have to be right. No matter what I say, I'm wrong and your response to everything I say is "You're just proving my point." Man up and accept the blame when it's appropriate.

2. Hanging up. That's rude. Just don't do it. Even if you don't want to hear what I have to say, there are other ways to go about ending a conversation instead of hanging up on someone.

3. Respect my opinions as I respect yours. You may not like it, but you have to acknowledge that it's an opinion. Opinions can't be right or wrong.

4. Yelling at me is no way to solve a problem.

5. Also, name calling is immature as well as degrading. You don't speak that way to me. I won't listen to it.

6. Ignoring the issue altogether isn't going to solve anything either. I can give you time to cool down before we talk, but we HAVE to talk about it. If it isn't discussed then it will come back later. There's no use in having ghosts of problems past haunting us.

7. Chill out. Don't be so edgy all the time. Stop waiting for me to say something that could be construed as offensive. Don't try to trap me because that's malicious and manipulative.

I love you so much, and I miss you a lot right now. I'm thinking about you and what I can do to make things better for you, and I hope you're doing the same thing for me. I know there are things I need to work on...my tone of voice, the same thing I accused you of doing in #7 above, my attitude. I'm getting there. Stick with me, it takes time. I'll give you all the time you need. I just want us to be happy again. I know the honeymoon stage is over, but there is no reason why we can't be happy like we were. I'm willing to forget the ugly and only stick with the good, but at the same time I know I have to take the good with the bad. Just please know that I'm doing this for our benefit. It hurts but I'm getting better. Each day gets easier.

Please don't forget me.

Friday, February 20, 2009

this is sickening

By now, everyone knows about the whole Chris Brown whaling on Rihanna. It's been weeks and finally someone released (leaked?) the picture the cops took after the beating. Here it is:

Bruised Rihanna

This is why I have almost no faith left in men. There are a few exceptions, but for the most part they are sleezy scumbags who think it's okay to do this to a woman! Why is it okay for you to put your hands on another person? I know every boy has heard from their mother or significant woman figure in their lives that they aren't to hit girls. The same goes for everyone...just keep your hands to yourself! Why is that so damn hard? I'm really sick that someone could harm another human being in such a manner.

Maybe back in the day it was more acceptable to hit a woman if she disobeyed you. If dinner wasn't on the table or the laundry wasn't folded correctly. Drunk men everywhere abused their loving wives, or shall I say, doormats. Sorry men, that isn't in our definition anymore. You can't touch us. You will go to jail and worse, our fathers will beat you to a pulp. Our brothers, male friends, and family members will kill you for laying your dirty hands on us in any inappropriate manner. And we will too. We won't take it anymore.

So next time, before you do something, sit your 40 down and gain some self-control. Don't take your hate for your lowlife self out on your innocent girlfriend who is most likely just upset that you're a pig in every sense of the word.

Here's a big F**K YOU! to Chris Brown. I hope you go to jail you asshole.